Most Sorrowful Christmas Ever!

For a couple who have been spending their life planning for their future family, having a child is the best blessing and gift that they could possibly get from up above. 

That is why when the couple Jea Guico-Ilagan and Oyo Ilagan, when they found out that they were going to have a baby everything felt right. Their family was bound to be completed. They spent their lices preparing for the special moment of having their child Marcus Kiefer in their arms. 

But a tragic incident happened that broke all their plans and dreams. The baby Marcus Kiefer passed away inside the womb of the mother Jea the same time as the Christmas season. It was the most devastating Christmas that they had to deal with. The sudden death of the baby  that they had been waiting for broke their hearts. 

The couple managed to stay stong and be there for each other. They believed that everything happens for a reason. 

The story of Oyo and Jea is here: 

It was My husband's birthday June 24th when I knew I was really pregnant, I surprised him with these clear blue's PT. We both cried and feel blessed because we received this kind of gift from our Lord.

The next day we celebrated oyo's Birthday and tell our parents about our Baby. Everyone's so excited!!! 

Oyo and I were thinking of our baby's name. We're so excited!! If its a baby boy we will name Him Kiefer.

We also went to OB for consultation and yay it was confirmed I am 7 weeks pregnant back then!!! 

7 weeks of having a baby in my tummy was really special. The feeling was different, I can't hide my excitement. I like to see Oyo every minute, I like to see his face but sometimes He really annoys me. I guess that time 'pinaglilihian ko sya'..... My 1st trimester was so not sensitive, I'm really thankful coz my morning sickness was so rare. I can even eat normally. There's no specific food that I am craving all I remember is that if I like to eat something, Oyo need to look for it.

Every month we're seeing my OB. Checkups in Dubai are really expensive if you will convert it to Peso. I guess one check up will cost you 10k pesos plus my prenatal vitamins.

1st-2nd-3rd month of being preggy!!! Yay!! I gain fats also!!

My OB said baby's fine and doing well in my 1st trimester. I am taking my prenatal vitamins on time. I still go to work and do walking every now and then. I eat a lot during this period which is very good for my baby. 

I remember this photo was taken on my Anomaly Scan I was on my 20th week. Anomaly shows whether your baby is developing normally and where the placenta is lying in your uterus. It is sometimes called your mid-pregnancy ultrasound scan and must take place when you are between 18 and 23 weeks pregnant. 

We will also know baby's gender this time that's why we're so excited!!!! Oyo's so nervous during this time He really prays for this day!! 

And yay!!!!!!! Its a boy!!!!!!!!!! We really prayed for a baby boy. And we're so thankful for this blessing!!!!

We also like to go to baby shops every time were in the malls. We choose this carseat/stroller of Graco, but we still didn't buy it. I ask oyo to buy it on January 2016 before going home to Philippines since my due date is February. This stroller cost 2,100aed (yea expensive if you will convert to peso) but we really like the style of it and Graco is a good brand! 

Omg, time passed so fast!!!!!! I was 29weeks during this photo. This day was my Despedida party in our home. I really don't want to go home actually, but I have no choice because We decided to deliver Kiefer in Philippines so I can be with my family here and they will take care of Kiefer also.

I asked my OB of I can celebrate Christmas in Dubai with oyo, but she then refused it. She said I need to go home before 32weeks of pregnancy. I was really sad. :(

Before flying back to Philippines we make sure that I am fit to travel. She then told us that everything is fine that our baby is doing well and I just need to wait until my due date comes. 

Dec 13: I was so sad that night I don't want to be away with Oyo, but we have no choice. During the whole flight Kiefer was awake and moving I can't even sleep because He moves so strong. Maybe he can feel the pressure in the air. And take note we're traveling 9hours in the air. 

And yeah Im in Philippines already... The weather was different from dubai. I can't even sleep early coz my body clock was still in Dubai... But everything is fine with me and Kiefer. I ate what I missed in Pinas!! Jollibee, lutong bahay ni nanay, Manga, and so much more!!! 

I also looked for hospitals where I can give birth to Kiefer and yes I found the perfect place to be in. It was near in Indang (which Oyo's hometown is) I also found OB there but that time He was on leave and we are schedule to meet 1st week of January. He just advised me to take my vitamins on time. I also told him that my past checkups in Dubai was fine and that Kiefer is healthy (as my OB in Dubai said)

I bought kiefer's clothes.

Dec 22: yes I can still drive! Im with my mom and we're going to Philhealth to fix oyo's membership so I can use it for kiefer's delivery. That time I can only feel mild contractions while driving. I just ignore it coz its normal in my 3rd Trimester.

I also had a chance to meet the sewer to embroider Kiefer's name on each white clothes that I bought.

We went home late coz traffic was so terrible that day. Yea Im so freakin' tired!! I also called Oyo and told him that I will not be able to wait after his work for skype.

Dec 23: The next day... I woke up and felt okay after a tiring day. I can only feel contractions the whole day, see that kick on my left side that's the last time I feel kief's movement. I just stayed home and rest waiting for Kiefer's movement. I just think that kiefer's resting also. But time to time Im updating oyo about kief. Then the night came, kiefer's still not moving. After this, sobrang bilis na ng mga pangyayare... :'(

Dec 24: So I woke up and still kiefer's not moving. I called my OB if its normal and he said I need to go to ER to check kief's heartbeat. Im so nervous that time, also to think that its holiday already There's no available OB to talked to. So there we went to Sta. Rosa Hospital & Medical Center Emergency Room at 10:40am, the nurse check up on me using fetal doppler for Kief's heartbeat. 2 nurses check me up but still they did not find kief's heartbeat. Huhu. They advised me that they can call their on call OB to have an emergency ultrasound. But I need to wait 1hour before OB will arrive. So there, I waited. While waiting Im updating oyo, he's so nervous and feeling angry at the same time coz the OB takes time to arrive. I waited 2hrs before OB Arrives.

And then the results came, OB explained to me that there's really NO heartbeat at all and no movement from kief. I also saw in the monitor that kiefer's blood flow in his heart was not there. I cried!!!!!! I cried alot!!! :'( 

The doctors advised us that I need to be admitted to remove kief's body from my tummy. I really can't believe what was happening! Huhu I called oyo and Told him that Kiefer left us already. Oyo cried and did not believe me huhuhu! I asked him if he can come home. He called his boss and ask for Emergency Leave and look for available flight the same day. Luckily I found a flight from PAL, oyo will arrive the next day . The doctor advised me that I need to be Induced. Inducing labor (also called labor induction) is when your health care provider gives you medicines or uses other methods to start your labor. But they advised me that It will take time coz tIm only 1cm and the pelvic was still close. We decided for 2nd Opinion and went to St.James Hospital they told me that I cannot have induction method because they are not sure if I can endure the pain. They advised me to do Cesarian to remove kief's body but there's not available OB so I still need to wait. And then, Mama Juliet (oyo's Mom) came and called some close friends to look for available OB. Thank God They found one. We immediately transferred to Gentri Doctors Medical Center.

Dec 24 admitted at 9pm @ Gentri Doctors Medical Center: I was admitted under Dr. Sepacio, she told me that I will have Induction Method since kiefer is still small And I can endure the pain instead of having CS. I started my Labor at 11pm they put me in Labor room. There's a lady beside me she's on her labor also with a twins, she's crying because of the pain while me, I am crying because I lost my son. ��

Dec 25: I woke up while oyo's hugging me! Huhu then we started to cry cry cry �� This is the saddest Christmas ever. We can't believe that kiefer left us already. I told oyo how sorry am I for what had happened I did my best to take good care of our baby. I don't know why this has to happened. I asked God why? Why us? Then oyo said, Gods plan for us are far better than our plans for ourselves that we need to Trust God in spite of what happened.

Dec 25 2pm: OB allowed me to stay in my room with my family since I am still 3cm only. There's only mild contractions. Take note I started my labor since last night Dec 24 at 11pm, and I am still 3cm in this photo. I need to reach 9cm so I can deliver kiefer. Oyo and I slept while contractions still on going, maybe I have high tolerance in pain. I stayed in the room until 2am Dec26....... Then omg the pain suddenly arise! I felt the contractions continuously and I cannot take it anymore so we called the nurse if I can go down to the Labor room. I felt the urge to pee, and too poop and my back really hurts that time.

Dec 26 2:30am @ Labor Room: Oyo was outside the labor room I wanted him to come inside but he's not allowed to enter the Labor Room. I asked the nurse again if I can be with oyo but then they refuse again. Huhuhu. No choice. Im alone in the labor room 2:30am and the pain was increasing!!!!!! Im shouting 'Aray!' Huhuhu and the nurse kept on saying 'kaya mo yan mam' huhu but really the pain is so intense i can't even sleep that time. I was looking at the clock its already 4am omg the pain kept on going, I'm praying and shouting 'in Jesus name give me strength Oh Lord'. I'm shaking while contractions are happening the nurse said I have to relax and breath normally but really I cannot relax that time and Im turning pale. I stared at the clock all though out the pain its already 5:30am and I cannot take the pain anymore I wanted to pee so the nurse asked me too pee on my diaper. I tried to pee but the pain is so intense. 5:45 I tried to push hard so I can pee but then my 'panubigan' broke!!! I was so scared!! I told the nurse 'omg ate ano un andami! Then It really hurts I dont know but I felt like I need to push and suddenly I felt Kiefer's head already!!!!! The nurse said 'saglit jea pigilin mo, wag kang iire, tatawagin ko muna si Doc' but I dont want her to leave me I'm really scared �� I can feel that kiefer will be out anytime soon. They transferred me to delivery room. And then sabi ko nalang kay Doc ' doc ayan na talaga iire nako' then Kiefer came out. Ramdam na ramdam ko yun paglabas nya. After that knock out nako, sobrang na ease un pain and I suddenly I slept!

Dec 26 8am: I woke up in another room but still im feeling Dizzy. OB came and explained to me everything. She said 'Kiefer was still in the nursery. I asked her what's the cause of the death, she then told me that If she will base externally 1st: Kiefer's nose passage (butas ng ilong) is too small. 2nd: Kiefer's navel was not proportion to his umbilical cord causing it too swollen. I'm crying while she was talking to me. Huhu. But if they will to base internally, she advised me to have autopsy of kiefer's body. Autopsy is a highly specialized surgical procedure that consists of a thorough examination of a corpse to determine the cause and manner of death and to evaluate any disease or injury that may be present. They need to cut kiefer's body one by one!!! I refused!! I don't want that method. I just wanna see my baby for the last time I told her.. And then I saw my baby....... He was so cute, and already a human! He has hair already, his lips was so cute and red, his hands, the body and his pototoy was so cute!!!!! Huhuhuhu �� Tears fell at me while staring at my Baby boy. And then the nurse advised me that they will bring me to my room and Kiefer will be at the morgue. Huhuhu. Sobrang sakit! I waited to my OB to release me so I can burry my baby. I was discharged at 5pm Dec 26 and went home to Oyo's place where we will burry our baby.

Indeed the saddest Christmas season of our family.��

Dec 27 10am: going to the chapel to bless Our Angel.

Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, For the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.” Matthew 19:14

Sabi ni Father: Swerte ka daw Baby ko dahil hindi kana makakaranas ng ano mang hirap at sakit dahil sa piling ni Lord eh puro ligaya nalang ang yong mararanasan.

We love you anak!!! Daddy Oyo and I will always be grateful that we have you in our lives. Kahit sa saglit na panahon lang anak ibang klaseng ligaya ang dinulot mo samin. We will never ever forget you Baby Marcus Kiefer. You will be forever in our hearts!

Goodbye for now Our Little Angel. ��

Mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal ka namin ni Daddy Oyo.

Source: Jea Guico-Ilagan